Season’s Greetings

Lilian Caylee Wang

I want to understand what a casserole is. I want to be able to gush over Christmas presents. Or just to smile without complication. But who am I without the fire and ice, both running through my veins, equalizing into primordial rivers of regrets and “sorry’s” dating back to the first moment I thought I was in love. I try to believe in happiness. I try to hear the word, home. But there is something inside me that wants to kill me, and the only time I feel like I can breathe

 

I am alone and there are stars.

 

 

 

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Lilian Caylee Wang won a writing contest as a five-year-old in Tennessee. Since then, her work has been published in the New York Times, McSweeney’s, The Huffington Post, Whetstone Magazine, sPARKLE & bLINK, Black Fox Literary Magazine, Solstice Literary Magazine, Five Points, and more. She lives on the road with her partner and her puppy.