Sweet Chamomile

Mercury-Marvin Sunderland

 

sweet chamomile
honey offerings
have dissolved

boil leaves
carry this mug with my
aching wrists

i drink
not just to sleep
but to find calm

in the hands
are pins and needles

but not numbing

it has been
three (3) entire months

of having
wrist synovitis

& my fingers tremble
as i take the hot leaf water
to mouth

how to sleep
when your wrists
cannot do anything

other than ache

sweet sweet
it is lined
at the bottom

with my daily offering
to the god hermes

god of healing
& my frankincense burns

& my room
is a lot less
of the prison it was
back when i
couldn’t even lift the mug.

to heal
is not linear
& i will zigzag

to better nights

sweet chamomile
honey offerings
have dissolved

boil leaves
carry this mug with my
aching wrists

 

 

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Mercury-Marvin Sunderland is a transgender autistic gay man with Borderline Personality Disorder. He’s from Seattle and currently attends the Evergreen State College. He’s been published by University of Amsterdam’s Writer’s Block, UC Davis’ Open Ceilings, and UC Santa Barbara’s Spectrum. He’s @RomanGodMercury on Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter.